I Am Your Portion

“Call this to mind and you will have hope: Because of My great love for you, you will not be consumed. My compassions never fail. They are made new every morning. Great is My faithfulness toward you. For I, Yahweh, am your portion, therefore wait for Me. I am good to those who hope in Me, to those who seek Me.” (Lamentations 3:21-25)

Are you my portion, Lord? I know you are able, but do I truly embrace that in every part of my life and being? Do I make a conscious choice every moment of every day to trust that you are enough for me, and that nothing else would ever be able to take your place in my life?

Could your “portion” be manifest in your blessing? When I contemplate all that you have given to us through your blessing: family, church, your Word, gifts of music and art and poetry, gifts of technology and science and medicine, gifts and fruits of your Spirit, even the simple pleasures of life . . . this is your portion, is it not?

But what about times when the blessing is less noticeable or there is suffering to endure whether temporary or permanent? Are you still my portion, Lord? That is, do I fully embrace the situation I am in knowing in my heart that you have given me just what I need, no more and no less, to persevere through the situation at hand? How can we have the attitude of the Apostle Paul when he said, I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” (Philippians 4:12-13).

Perhaps it is found in your great love for us, where your love and compassion never fails. Perhaps it is because of this amazing love that only you can offer above all others that allows me to fall yet still remain in your love. Like a father who sees his son a long way off and is “filled with compassion” for him, so you run even to me, throw your arms around me and kiss me . . . even when my gaze turns from your face. You simply and gently remind me so that my gaze turns to you once again, while simultaneously filling me with love and compassion from my spouse, my children, my family, my church, my friends, my gifts, my calling, my joys, my bliss . . . knowing fully that these are not my possessions but rather your portion. Your grace blessed unto me “on loan” for your and my good pleasure. Wow…

Thank you, God, through the words of Paul, for revealing this “secret” to me and for being my portion. I confess it is sometimes challenging to grasp and cling to, yet I put my utmost trust in you that you will continue to reveal yourself to me more each day, in your time, peeling away the layers and barriers that keep me from remaining in your love. After all, your ways are the very best ways ever. Praise to you, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit! Love you, Lord. Amen.